Radical Dreamer ([info]kaifukusurukizu) wrote,
  • Mood: giving up
  • Music: Poe - Lemon Meringue

2 points past broken

The alternator is broken.  I'm stuck in this house for who knows how long, with my father no less.  I want to...Smash my face into the bathroom mirror, not to be self destructive, but just to have something to do.  He's insane.  I'm too stressed.  I can barely get up in the morning.  I'm truly poor, with 40 dollars to my name. There's absolutely nothing to eat here except frozen stir fry. I'm dropping out of school, or the one class I have left anyway.  In my rush back into education (and to prove to myself I wasn't as stupid as I felt living with 10 students and not being one myself) I was completely oblivious to the memory that I've consistently done poorly in school because of the same depressing and stressful living situation I returned to.  I'm not even writing anymore.  I just can't bring myself to care.  I'm not returning to school until I get away from this place, which will hopefully be soon.  I'd leave now, but...

~someone calls me..., someone one looks for me.

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[info]false_demeanor

July 23 2005, 22:48:44 UTC 6 years ago

Don't drop out of school if you can help it. If it's the best possible solution for you right now than it's ok. Life is a struggle, a battle that'll hang you up to dry. I find myself living paycheck to paycheck...struggling to save up what I can to prepare for what the future holds for me and my other half. I don't know what you're going through, but I know a writer as good as you only stops when lack of motivation and inspiration has inhabited your ambition and determination. I have faith in you and I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

[info]magnum_opera

July 23 2005, 23:16:09 UTC 6 years ago

God fucking damnit, what have I told you? Giving up is the stupidest thing you can do. People succeed to piss of the people who thought they couldn't. Give your father a migraine and go be fucking awesome and successful.

[info]sweet_tiffany82

July 24 2005, 01:25:19 UTC 6 years ago

:(..aw

but pls dont drop out of school. im sure you are a strong person. dont give up
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